about my path
From "Today's Gift from Hazelden" July 14, 2007:
How can I be sure I'm doing my Higher Power's will? There is, of course, no certain way to know, but what I rely on is an inner sense of lightness and rightness. I pray for guidance, I ask for answers, I listen to my inner voice, and I talk to people whose opinion I respect. I also believe if what I'm doing is not my Higher Power's will for me, I'll find out, since it won't work.
I believe something very similar to this. I do ask for knowledge of my Higher Power's will for me and the power to carry it out. I believe the two go together - that when I gain knowledge of the next right step for me to take, I will also gain the ability and willingness to take that step. Ability and willingness = power to carry it out. And "carry it out" means action, not thought. Intentions are great and intentions fulfilled, made evident and tangible are fantastic. Unfulfilled intentions are a source of regret for me. I don't intend to live my life with regrets. Sadness, yes. That is unavoidable. I am sad about options I have not chosen, and about possibilities and wishes that for whatever reason have not manifested in my life. They were not on my path.
My path is tortured, tortuous, twisted and delightful.
Around every turn is the inevitable unexpected.
I see near and far other paths with their own rises, mountains, plains and vales
and pine for them. Wistful choices not mine to make.
By turns the yearning deepens abysmally.
Rivers run with lost possibility, fed from my aquifer of tears.
How can I be sure I'm doing my Higher Power's will? There is, of course, no certain way to know, but what I rely on is an inner sense of lightness and rightness. I pray for guidance, I ask for answers, I listen to my inner voice, and I talk to people whose opinion I respect. I also believe if what I'm doing is not my Higher Power's will for me, I'll find out, since it won't work.
I believe something very similar to this. I do ask for knowledge of my Higher Power's will for me and the power to carry it out. I believe the two go together - that when I gain knowledge of the next right step for me to take, I will also gain the ability and willingness to take that step. Ability and willingness = power to carry it out. And "carry it out" means action, not thought. Intentions are great and intentions fulfilled, made evident and tangible are fantastic. Unfulfilled intentions are a source of regret for me. I don't intend to live my life with regrets. Sadness, yes. That is unavoidable. I am sad about options I have not chosen, and about possibilities and wishes that for whatever reason have not manifested in my life. They were not on my path.
My path is tortured, tortuous, twisted and delightful.
Around every turn is the inevitable unexpected.
I see near and far other paths with their own rises, mountains, plains and vales
and pine for them. Wistful choices not mine to make.
By turns the yearning deepens abysmally.
Rivers run with lost possibility, fed from my aquifer of tears.
Loss taps into geysers, smoothing sharp pains.
And I keep moving, curious.
On a rise, I turn back to behold an amazing vista,
the marvelous scope of my life. Only then do I comprehend
the landscape sculpted by experience, deeply detailed by pain and by love,
colored by feeling, and shaded by other paths entwined with mine.
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